During our October 2010 trip I walked from the Ilikai Hotel to the Borders bookstore at Ward Center. While walking there I noticed a homeless woman sitting on the grass against a wall. Every time someone came too near to her she would rage, startling the person who would jump and quickly back away from her! Once I finished in Borders I went to the park across the street and sat there to watch her. Every time someone got too close she went into her routine. I couldn’t figure out if she was crazy or cunning!
The human heart is tender and early on we learn to protect it by various behaviors: sarcasm, anger, aloofness, control. Indulged-in often enough these behaviors can become habitual… and alienating. Truly a self-fulfilling prophecy ensuring that we do not belong to anyone or anywhere, nor they to us. Sometimes one winds up locked into a painful isolation with no understanding of how it came to be! Sitting in the park on that stunningly beautiful day as I watched the homeless woman across the street, I thought “She’s lost the way back to her own heart!” We need to be careful what habits we form because some of them can end up holding us hostage!